Gideon is saying, “my narrative contradicts your call. My life story does not line up with what you’re saying, Lord. My circumstances do not fit the direction you are navigating me in.”
Sometimes, we disengage from challenging injustice because we have been conditioned to believe that our efforts will not matter; we don’t believe that we can make any real difference. God requires us, his people, to be the movement, humbly and faithfully carrying his mercy, his justice, and his transforming presence in our world.